I just started the Path of Ceremonial Magick (CM), read a few books and blogs and been doing some Work. Most of the time, I have no clue what I'm doing except for following the instructions in the books with a little bit of guidance from more skilled Pagans. I live in Wiccan-land so, as far as that goes, I'm working the Work alone with alot of help from my friends.
What also twists my perceptions of CM is that I have a solid mathmatics/science background and a working single mom of two kids. I'm not some strange guy who has way too much time on his hands. It's hard to accept and not be skeptical of the material when one has had the first and second law of thermodynamics drilled into their head. Hey, I took 3 years of Calculus! I know! Newton only created it as a symbol set for Physics. Maybe, he got the idea from CM? Sir Newton sitting under his apple tree:
"Let's create a complex set of laws and symbols so esoteric that most average students will flunk it their first quarter of it and become business majors"
At least the physicists can truly say that they're are more than human because they can provide evidentiary support that there were truly conducive to the astral travel of humankind.
I truely have to find the magickal in the mundane between stinky shoes/socks, lighting pilot lights, cooking, unclogging toilets, vacuuming the dirt from the carpet, and mowing the lawn. Nobody can tell me that I don't work with air, fire, water and earth. I do it daily, both pleasant and repulsive forms of it and I DONT have to call a single spirit. It just manifests within my daily life
So I'm at the end of my very first post and I will leave it with a little insight that I came up with after meditating on the Fool card so here it goes:
Magick according to the engineer/mathematician
Tarot ==> Complex, yet capitivating, symbol set of pictorial statements of life and spirit
Fool is less than or equal to 0 less than equal to 1
Fool<=>Self) Fool is equivalent to self
So how's that for esoteric!