When I decided i wanted to be on the CM path, the whole "more than human" idea appealed to me and the working with spirits was pretty COOL too. I realized though, before I can work with spirits, I must first be able to allow the demons within myself come to the surface. Although I still cannot express the concept in actual words, here is the first personal demon that has surfaced (in mathematical terms):
Self = The Devoted Daughter/Girlfriend/Wife (DDGW)
DDGW = Galatea ==> Persophone
Hades = Father + Boyfriends + Ex-husband
Using the analagous concepts i derived from the fool card meditiation/analysis, I realized the IC engine is the Qabalah and the filter(s) are rituals.